Get ready for a bout of complaining.

Last Thursday, my lecturer wasn't available for the lesson, so another lecturer came in. Because of that, only SIX people came in for the lesson, including me.

THEN, because only SIX people came in, the lecturer had to REPEAT the whole damn lesson again today. WHICH totally makes the 3 to 4 individual counselling IMPOSSIBLE. So in the end, we only had ONE session which the counsellor had to rotate 3 TIMES. I was the first one.

If I wasn't the first one, this post would be even worse.

HELLO? If you're taking the damn course for fun, then go ahead and do it for fun. DON'T AFFECT THE OTHER PEOPLE WHO HOPE TO MAKE A LIVING OUT OF IT. Don't come for lesson, make the lecturer repeat and waste the whole damn 3 hours.

I got so damn mad. I needed to make this course work for me because I needed the credits to get into the university in order to continue.

I just got my results for the first and second module. Both were individual work. I got an A for the first and B for the second. I'm waiting for the 3rd and 4th results to come out. If the 4th one I get a C I tell you I'm gonna screw my partner upside down inside out.

Seriously ah, I don't know what's going on in m****s heads. I say the time, BE THERE AT THAT TIME. Nb, he was freaking late for freaking 2 hours. He doesn't have microsoft powerpoint or even HEARD OF IT. YEA RIGHT. I don't know if he's either that spaced out or he's just weasling out of doing the work.

My part I did fantastically. He didn't even do his work up to par. I had to do his slides for him, which, btw, he didn't even say thank you for. The material he gave me is like what, like shyt la. Then on the day of submission he was freaking 2 hours late when he was the freaking one who needed to finish his freaking part. In the end? HE ONLY DO HALF because NOT ENOUGH TIME.

#$%^&*

Seriously la please. Not one smidget of responsibility.

Dammit. I need to be in a happy place right now. Chris isn't even helping. All I want when I get home is peace and quiet where I can unwind and do the things I want.

I got too many things stuck inside me and inside my mind. The trial counselling went horribly. I got stuck most of the time. Can I even pass this or go into university. I hate my freaking class. No one is taking things seriously.

I want to talk to someone who will listen, and not freaking guess what's on my mind and telling me things I don't want to hear.

I guess this study problem isn't the real problem. The stress is built up from my two other problems that has been with me since last year.

fml..

fmlfmlfml.

Maybe I should just counsel myself.